There has to be something more than Calgon

Please oh please tell me that the only way to be taken away is not by Calgon. I must admit at this point I am really frustrated, frustrated that probably no one is going to read this blog, frustrated that I have figured out that for the last month or so, I am running or shall I say driving in my car up to four times a day, picking up children from various things, frustrated that I would really, really, really, like a moment to myself away for a weekend, Please don't get me wrong. I LOVE my kids they are wonderful, but when the computer and reading aren't filling the void that has to say something. I am really not looking forward to going back to school yet, I am hoping that I can switch my position but probably not, and then I have to wonder why GOD would want me in the same position. I have tried therapy, and medicine but that doesn't seem to work, I have no focus, I have asked GOD for direction and I have to be honest I am not getting much of an answer. Just silence, WHY ??? What terrible rotten thing have I done? Why can't the answers be clear?