There has to be something more than Calgon

Please oh please tell me that the only way to be taken away is not by Calgon. I must admit at this point I am really frustrated, frustrated that probably no one is going to read this blog, frustrated that I have figured out that for the last month or so, I am running or shall I say driving in my car up to four times a day, picking up children from various things, frustrated that I would really, really, really, like a moment to myself away for a weekend, Please don't get me wrong. I LOVE my kids they are wonderful, but when the computer and reading aren't filling the void that has to say something. I am really not looking forward to going back to school yet, I am hoping that I can switch my position but probably not, and then I have to wonder why GOD would want me in the same position. I have tried therapy, and medicine but that doesn't seem to work, I have no focus, I have asked GOD for direction and I have to be honest I am not getting much of an answer. Just silence, WHY ??? What terrible rotten thing have I done? Why can't the answers be clear?

Well it is August. School starts soon, I don't know if I am happy or sad about it.  I am thankful for a job again this year. I also have had a job this summer helping out some friends with a loved one, the extra income has been nice. My one son is going to be playing football this year that's exciting. However I must admit there is a part of me that wishes we didn't have to go back to school. 

Though my kids will tell you about the "shear boredom" that they have.  I have been told recently by someone close to me that I "live in a fantasy world" that what I thought were my dreams aren't really a reality. That it is pointless to try dream of goals when you can't get past point A and move to point B. It really hurts. I thought that dreaming and having goals was a good thing. But apparently I was wrong. I know that no one reads this website. I don't know how to connect to others. I am just throwing this all out there.  Hope that the rest of your summer is wonderful and full of laughter, love.