Life Goes On....

 Life Goes On...... As I posted last time my friend has Cancer. She is doing good, However Life Goes On....As always Life Goes On. The question of the day or week or whatever is What direction is Life suppose to take. I have learned recently that God is calling me to think about the direction I am suppose to be taking. I want to go into teaching, but with the changes that are occuring in the state. I will be required to get two degrees instead of one. Also do I really want to do High School or am I suppose to do Elementary School? So, many questions,, but when will the answers come???

Have any of you ever been in this situation??? please let me know.

WORDS we don't like

IS there a word out there that you just don't like? I have one. C-A-N-C-E-R. I am not sure there are many people out there that do like the word.

 My pastor's mom has recently been diagnosed with cancer. She has a tumor on her frontal lobe. She goes into surgery tomorrow. I have cried out to GOD, just why, and that it's -- I mean, BUT then I realized that there is more than just this one person out there that battles this disease. There are millions of people out there who probably hate this word. 

HATE is such a strong word. But how about I just don't like this disease. The one disease I wish GOD would just waves His hands and get rid of.

If you or someone you know has this disease, please know I am praying for you and yours, and I ask that you pray for my friend as well.

"DeStress"

How does one "destress"? I recently was told that I needed to try and "destress" my life. I have to admit I looked at the person and laughed at them, I am the mother of teenager, I work  in a high school with special needs children, I am turning "40"in a month.. So how does one actually "destress" I am not quite sure. I enjoyed a campfire in my fire pit last night for a little while. Just sitting an being still. But I really wasn't listening to what God was telling me. I am not sure he was really telling me anything. So many thoughts came into my mind. People that I thought about,  people that I work with, people I go to church with , my family. How can we actually "Destress." I hope that one or someone out in the great world of the Internet knows the answer. It would be nice to lean on people and go through the stress together. So if you have any stress that you would like to get rid of.. Look me up. I will destress with you..

Okay.. What to do when you think God is calling you.

What do you do when  you think that God is calling you to do something? I have so many different desires in my heart. I would love to write on blogs and encourage people. But I am afraid because writing isn't my strong suit. I would love to teach or so I thought, but I am now interested in teaching women about God and how to get through life with God. But I thought I was going to teach students. I have to admit I would LOVE to be the next Beth Moore. Not that I am a smart as she is. But the desire to study and teach is there. But all I have is a high school diploma. I am working on a college degree but that's a(n) Associate in Arts degree. What do you do? The desires are so strong. Is this God? or me running away from what I think is God.

Been Awhile

Hello!! I realize it's been awhile.. So much has happened. So much I have learned. Going to start posting more. God is leading in a direction, and I am going to follow. Problem is the Devil is right there. And using people close to me to stop it.
More details to come

Been Awhile

Hello,
 It's been awhile since I have blogged. So many thoughts have been running through my brain right now. I am wondering how to process things and how best to handle the situations that have risen up in  my life lately. I am extremely puzzled with the meaning of friendships. What is a friendships? How do u make them last? How do keep friends? All of these questions and I wish that someone would could give me the answers I am looking for.  If you the answers I would appreciate you letting me know. Thanks

How come Friendships hurt??

As I sit here writing this. I have realized that it is possible that I have hurt a friend. And the sad thing is I HAVE to say BUT.. She has hurt me as well.
What do you do when you have said " I am sorry" one too many times. Or you have had one too many "drama issues." that you so didn't want to drag her into but it happens.
 You weren't there when they need you, but yet they seem to have moved on to another person and shut you out. It is like a tennis ball on a tennis court at the U.S. Open. Sometimes all you can do is throw your hands up and pray.
 I am giving this friendship to you Lord, I have given to you so many times. I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish that somehow, someway we could start over. Hi, My name is.... Nice to meet you? Have you ever wanted a "do-over" the problem with life is that you don't get "do-overs" and unlike God. Some people just won't forget or let go.
I hope that at some point my friend forgives me. And I her...