CoolChik Livin' Life

What am I thankful for?

2010-11-25T08:07:00.000-05:00

As I sit here on this Thanksgiving Morning of 2010, I am reflecting on what I am thankful for. I am thankful for a God who loves me, and is gracious even when I am not.
I am thankful for a husband who despite my shortcomings, has shown ALOT of grace for the last 20 1/2 years and continues to show it.

I am thankful for my children who sometimes drive me crazy. But that's okay, They pick out the retirement home in the end.

I am thankful for my job, even on days when I want to pull my hair out..

May you all have a great Thanksgiving, And may we all remember as we enter the holiday season, Let it always be Thanksgiving and Christmas all year long.

Favorie Time of Year

2010-09-09T09:51:00.000-04:00

Happy Autumn to you all. I must admit that this is my favorite time of year. I love autumn. The leaves starting to change colors, the chill in the air it reminds me of hot apple cider and chili, and there is football. I hope that this blog finds you all well.
I have been thinking alot lately and for the people that know me, that can be a dangerous thing. I have recently gone through something that I have not experienced before, the loss of a good friend through death. This is a woman who quite honestly, if I can be her when I grow up I am good. Even a little bit like her that works for me. She died of brain cancer, I had the opportunity to take care of her this summer, what a joy that was.
I hope that as we embark on the changing seasons, that you all take a step back and as God reveals his splendor, may he reveal his splendor to your heart as well.

There has to be something more than Calgon

2010-08-12T13:52:00.002-04:00

Please oh please tell me that the only way to be taken away is not by Calgon. I must admit at this point I am really frustrated, frustrated that probably no one is going to read this blog, frustrated that I have figured out that for the last month or so, I am running or shall I say driving in my car up to four times a day, picking up children from various things, frustrated that I would really, really, really, like a moment to myself away for a weekend, Please don't get me wrong. I LOVE my kids they are wonderful, but when the computer and reading aren't filling the void that has to say something. I am really not looking forward to going back to school yet, I am hoping that I can switch my position but probably not, and then I have to wonder why GOD would want me in the same position. I have tried therapy, and medicine but that doesn't seem to work, I have no focus, I have asked GOD for direction and I have to be honest I am not getting much of an answer. Just silence, WHY ??? What terrible rotten thing have I done? Why can't the answers be clear?

2010-08-05T07:15:00.000-04:00

Well it is August. School starts soon, I don't know if I am happy or sad about it. I am thankful for a job again this year. I also have had a job this summer helping out some friends with a loved one, the extra income has been nice. My one son is going to be playing football this year that's exciting. However I must admit there is a part of me that wishes we didn't have to go back to school.

Though my kids will tell you about the "shear boredom" that they have. I have been told recently by someone close to me that I "live in a fantasy world" that what I thought were my dreams aren't really a reality. That it is pointless to try dream of goals when you can't get past point A and move to point B. It really hurts. I thought that dreaming and having goals was a good thing. But apparently I was wrong. I know that no one reads this website. I don't know how to connect to others. I am just throwing this all out there. Hope that the rest of your summer is wonderful and full of laughter, love.

Summer Vacation

2010-07-10T14:48:00.000-04:00

Hello all. I hope that you are enjoying your summer. I am enjoying mine. My children and I are off for the summer since there is no school. I am part of a program called booksneeze
http://www.booksneeze.com you are suppose to read a book and then give a review. I received the book "The Vertical Self." I must say I had a very hard time getting into this book. I really wish it wasn't that hard. I guess I am not that smart.. (lol) anyways, If you are interested in booksneeze I have enclosed the website here.
Enjoy your summer I will be back soon.
http://www.booksneeze.com

Been Awhile and Summer's Comin

2010-06-08T08:24:00.000-04:00

It's been awhile again. I am hoping now that Summer is comin and school is out that I will be able to post more blogs and get the hang of this blogger thing. I guess the one thing that bugs me that seems so weird is that I don't think anyone really reads this. But I guess that I can get my thoughts out there and someone , somewhere might read them.
Summer's Comin.... What are your plans???? Mine are to take kids to all their different camps and work on painting my house. I can actually relax a little this summer because I am not going to have to look for a job or do my schoolwork. YEA!!!!
Please share your thoughts on what you're doing this summer.

Life Goes On....

2010-04-22T11:08:00.000-04:00

Life Goes On...... As I posted last time my friend has Cancer. She is doing good, However Life Goes On....As always Life Goes On. The question of the day or week or whatever is What direction is Life suppose to take. I have learned recently that God is calling me to think about the direction I am suppose to be taking. I want to go into teaching, but with the changes that are occuring in the state. I will be required to get two degrees instead of one. Also do I really want to do High School or am I suppose to do Elementary School? So, many questions,, but when will the answers come???

Have any of you ever been in this situation??? please let me know.

WORDS we don't like

2010-03-21T17:05:00.000-04:00

IS there a word out there that you just don't like? I have one. C-A-N-C-E-R. I am not sure there are many people out there that do like the word.

My pastor's mom has recently been diagnosed with cancer. She has a tumor on her frontal lobe. She goes into surgery tomorrow. I have cried out to GOD, just why, and that it's -- I mean, BUT then I realized that there is more than just this one person out there that battles this disease. There are millions of people out there who probably hate this word.

HATE is such a strong word. But how about I just don't like this disease. The one disease I wish GOD would just waves His hands and get rid of.

If you or someone you know has this disease, please know I am praying for you and yours, and I ask that you pray for my friend as well.

"DeStress"

2010-03-08T19:21:00.000-05:00

How does one "destress"? I recently was told that I needed to try and "destress" my life. I have to admit I looked at the person and laughed at them, I am the mother of teenager, I work in a high school with special needs children, I am turning "40"in a month.. So how does one actually "destress" I am not quite sure. I enjoyed a campfire in my fire pit last night for a little while. Just sitting an being still. But I really wasn't listening to what God was telling me. I am not sure he was really telling me anything. So many thoughts came into my mind. People that I thought about, people that I work with, people I go to church with , my family. How can we actually "Destress." I hope that one or someone out in the great world of the Internet knows the answer. It would be nice to lean on people and go through the stress together. So if you have any stress that you would like to get rid of.. Look me up. I will destress with you..

Okay.. What to do when you think God is calling you.

2010-02-10T08:23:00.001-05:00

What do you do when you think that God is calling you to do something? I have so many different desires in my heart. I would love to write on blogs and encourage people. But I am afraid because writing isn't my strong suit. I would love to teach or so I thought, but I am now interested in teaching women about God and how to get through life with God. But I thought I was going to teach students. I have to admit I would LOVE to be the next Beth Moore. Not that I am a smart as she is. But the desire to study and teach is there. But all I have is a high school diploma. I am working on a college degree but that's a(n) Associate in Arts degree. What do you do? The desires are so strong. Is this God? or me running away from what I think is God.

Been Awhile

2010-02-01T18:51:00.000-05:00

Hello!! I realize it's been awhile.. So much has happened. So much I have learned. Going to start posting more. God is leading in a direction, and I am going to follow. Problem is the Devil is right there. And using people close to me to stop it.
More details to come

Been Awhile

2009-09-28T10:32:00.000-04:00

Hello,
It's been awhile since I have blogged. So many thoughts have been running through my brain right now. I am wondering how to process things and how best to handle the situations that have risen up in my life lately. I am extremely puzzled with the meaning of friendships. What is a friendships? How do u make them last? How do keep friends? All of these questions and I wish that someone would could give me the answers I am looking for. If you the answers I would appreciate you letting me know. Thanks

How come Friendships hurt??

2009-09-08T19:32:00.000-04:00

As I sit here writing this. I have realized that it is possible that I have hurt a friend. And the sad thing is I HAVE to say BUT.. She has hurt me as well.
What do you do when you have said " I am sorry" one too many times. Or you have had one too many "drama issues." that you so didn't want to drag her into but it happens.
You weren't there when they need you, but yet they seem to have moved on to another person and shut you out. It is like a tennis ball on a tennis court at the U.S. Open. Sometimes all you can do is throw your hands up and pray.
I am giving this friendship to you Lord, I have given to you so many times. I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish that somehow, someway we could start over. Hi, My name is.... Nice to meet you? Have you ever wanted a "do-over" the problem with life is that you don't get "do-overs" and unlike God. Some people just won't forget or let go.
I hope that at some point my friend forgives me. And I her...

Hope.. What a gift...

2009-09-02T10:31:00.000-04:00

HOPE.. It is a word not many of us hear of these days. It is a word that for some might not be in their vocabulary. I have discovered that HOPE is a gift. A gift from a mighty GOD. Because without it, life would be even more unbearable at times.
People have HOPE that the Lord will meet their physical,financial, and emotional needs, Those who have sick loved ones, look for the silver lining in the clouds, or with the cup half full instead of half empty. Those who are looking for God to provide financially, HOPE that they will make the mortage payment or rent. They know that their is HOPE but in the midst of all the emotions and needs how do you find it.
I have learned that the best way to find HOPE is to turn to GOD. Because he will hand you the present of HOPE in ways you can not even imagine. And once you receive this present, it is a blessing to have. Now don't get me wrong sometimes we misplace this gift. But God is ALWAYS gracious to help us find it again.
May the Lord Bless you all with HOPE today and tomorrow,

Why?

2009-08-28T21:27:00.002-04:00

I am sitting here. Thankful for my new job. What a journey that was. I am thankful that MY GOD has taken care of me and loves me. I am adjusting to a new routine this week and I have realized that the one thing I have missed is my Quiet Time with the LORD. I had it today and my day felt complete. I was up WAY too early this morning and had the time, and God gave me the strength. And now my heart is crushed. I realize that I have made mistakes, but why can't they ever be forgiven and why can't some old habits just die. Why?? How come the more I make progress the or whatever I stumble. I want victory over this one thing. Why can't I get it? Just this one thing, the one thing that has destroyed so much.. The one thing that I want COMPLETE victory over.. How and why is it not coming??? What else do I need to do???
And why can't this friend of mine just be honest and tell me how they feel? I have done everything from "mothering" them to back off from that and "supporting" them like they asked me too and for what. To be told that my actions show I don't care about them. I put up with them belittling me and being hurtful to me and trying to show them I care and it gets me NOTHING. I just really want to know if something happened to me. What they would do? Is that bad? Is it bad to want to know if they really care or not? I wish I could have an answer these ???'s I have given them to GOD and I am waiting for the answers... Please if you read this just pray... I wish that I knew.. And could have victory that people would see me as a child of GOD and that I can regain the trust that is necessary.

God's Answers

2009-08-14T18:20:00.002-04:00

Have you ever asked God the What? or the How? but instead have u ever asked "where". I had been displaced or laid off from my job in June. I had searched all summer and sent out lots of resumes, had three job interviews, and was starting to get physically sick about what to do. I finally decided to just go to GOD and say instead what do u want me to do. WHERE do u want me to go. I was realizing how much I was going to miss the people that I had spent 2 years getting to know. And then the call came, the call that I wasn't expecting. The call from the principal where I worked before. "I have a position for you if you want it." Are you serious I said. Yes, you have to wait for the call from Central Office and then you can start.
That call came on Wednesday morning. Today Friday I started back at my old school with my friends, so grateful for the job, but more thankful.. ON how GOD provided for me,and how it granted me the desire of my heart.

Encouragement

2009-08-10T06:41:00.002-04:00

What encourages me? I would have to say at this stage in my life. I LOVE IT when God shows up and encourages me. I recently felt the need to take some "me" time and go with my Bible and my journal and sit at the local park. I also grabbed my pink lemonade, off I went. I sat among the trees on that hot afternoon and I just sat there. I began to ask God what do you want me to do? Where am I suppose to go? Show me how you want me to go? GOD directed me to the book of Colossians and as I read I started to laugh. I was reading from the Message bible and it says that ;
" just go ahead with what you have been given. You received Jesus Christ, the master now LIVE him. You're deeply rooted in HIM. You're well constructed upon him. You know your way around the faith. Now do what you have been taught. SCHOOL'S OUT. Quit studying the subject and start LIVIN it!
Colossians 2:6-7 (message)
SO that is how I feel encouraged. Just livin life with God.
I hope that encourages someone today. Have a blessed day

The Storms Of Life..

2009-08-06T14:51:00.000-04:00

Storms... They come in all sorts of different shapes, sizes, even different kinds of weather.. Snow, sleet, rain, tornados, hurricanes.
We had a storm here late last night into the early morning. It actually was really loud and bright. I thought for a minute there that God was trying to get my attention. I asked him what and said I was scared and then buried my head undercovers. Isn't that how it always is? When we get scared we bury our heads. I have wanted to bury my head for a while now. I have no job, it's not a bad thing in a way it is a good thing. I actually did my job the right way and lost my job.. LOL!!! But now as I keep trying to figure out what to do next. I am actually getting a little scared.
But I am also learning that to trust God completely and I will live the life that I was meant to life.
What storms are you going through? Remember God is always here no matter what.

Livin Life

2009-08-04T11:56:00.000-04:00

Hello,
My name is Deborah and I live in NC outside of Raleigh, I have four teenagers ranging in ages 13-18 2 girls and 2 boys. I have been married for almost 20 years to my gracious husband and I do mean GRACIOUS.
I enjoy reading and chatting on facebook. I also love going to church and am developing a new desire in soaking up all I can about GOD.
I have created this blog to hopefully meet some new and wonderful people throughout the Christian Community and to help in courage and build each other up. Feel free to leave a comment or find me on facebook.
Take care and may you live life as it was meant to be by trusting in GOD completely.
:)